Christmas Dinner

I will say I can’t remember if I have ever told you this, but I seriously don’t remember EVER cooking a Christmas Dinner.  Now that may surprise you or it may not, because I am 50, BUT I FINALLY did it this year!

Do you know, I am SO PROUD of myself for having achieved something so big and long awaited?  Many years have been either illness or hospitalisations.  Can I tell you the difference?  The cpap, reducing pregabalin and paracetamol needed to occur (oh and the infection I STILL HAD at the other hospital also needed removing).  

And I can tell you this, the combination of all this has been unbelievable.  Yes, I remember telling you about the fact I had believed for YEARS it was my fault that I hadn’t done a lot of things – including Christmas Dinner!  But it WASN’T!  I just COULDN’T do it physically and that was the issue.

Do you know I actually felt proud of myself when I had accomplished the meal and I didn’t care WHO liked it or didn’t.  My achievement has only been made possible because of the fact I mostly rested in the hospital and didn’t really do much except sleep and eat….well minus getting ready for the day and things like that.

It’s been such a wonderful joy of working things out and now I need to figure out how to sort out a plan a and plan b for the evenings and if I REALLY can’t do anything, Kevin will have to do something or order us a different dinner.

For me, the interesting thing to note is it is the first time I have EVER done something like this and quite honestly, ever been so proud of what I had achieved and not caring what other people think about it.

TREASURE 

Being proud of an accomplishment for the very first time.